As some of you may know, I became a dad back in 2020 and then again in early 2022. I would go into the normal tirade of how being a dad is the best thing that ever happened to me, and that I didn’t know love until I had these kids, but that’s just not … Continue reading But what about the good?
Tag: Anxiety
Things might not work out…
Growing up, I didn’t know my extended family super well. Part of being homeschooled in a large family is you don’t really consider that you need any connections outside of that main family group—so most of the things I know about my aunts, uncles, and cousins are from stories I heard from my parents. One … Continue reading Things might not work out…
men don’t cry.
I saw him floating ominously overhead A dark cloud of emotion. Standing on the plain, I thought he might cry just for a moment but the cloud passed on “big boys don’t cry.” The dry prairie seemed to beg him to let go to cry out to appease the dry and cracked soil hardened by … Continue reading men don’t cry.
On Being Self-Destructive
Those of you who’ve been reading my recent blog posts will know that I have a series of mental illnesses that have the tendency to fuck me up sometimes. Of course, ADHD is the obvious one, but I’ve also got a bit of chronic anxiety and possibly depression. I’m always hesitant to say I have … Continue reading On Being Self-Destructive
When Things are Bad
This week has been bad. Well, maybe not the whole week… I very often try to get myself to focus on the good things in life. After all, I’m in a position where I’ve been able to go back to school to pursue a different career in spite of my already being a father of … Continue reading When Things are Bad
An Introduction to Masking
When you’re someone like me who has multiple mental health problems and no access to any form of treatment, you learn a lot of coping mechanisms. My chronic anxiety means that I’ve had to learn when and how to avoid gatherings that will make me uncomfortable. My ADHD has made me go to extremes to … Continue reading An Introduction to Masking
I Have Anxiety…
I often find myself making excuses for not attending more social gatherings or getting involved with others. I say I don’t have time or need to finish work around the house. The reality is that I know better than to use the real reason I don’t want to be around others: despite my generally functioning … Continue reading I Have Anxiety…